I’ve Been Published! Sorta.

Those of you who followed at my other blog know that I like to take photos. I am fortunate that my boyfriends dad is a photographer and has been for decades so we have access to great photography equipment. He gave us an amazing little camera that he used for his personal use as it is a good camera but not as cumbersome as needing different lenses, flashes ect. and weighing twenty pounds like his other more expensive ones are. Don’t ask me the specs as I don’t know, but it takes really clear pictures in any condition. We also have his old professional camera that is just ridiculous and three lenses, but I prefer the simplicity of the point and shoot.

Anyway, by no means have I ever een delusional enough to believe I am actually a photographer but I did get one of my photos published on another website. Granted, anyone who submits gets published but I still feel a bit of pride at having someone else enjoy my photo.

Click to go to Broken Light: A Photography Collective

Broken Light: A Photography Collective is a collection of submitted photos on the subject of mental illness. There are people from all walks of life, and photos from around the world. Some are inspirational, some are thought-provoking, others simply beautiful but what they all have in common is that they were shot, submitted and appreciated by people with a mental illness. It is an inspiring site and I really hope all my readers will head over and check out some of the photos and stories.

I am proud to say that my photo and bio was featured there today. Fractured is a photo from a series of boudoir-esque self portraits that I shot before my surgery last year. At the time I was thinking that I would never have a scar-free body again so I should capture it. Interestingly, there is only a shot or two of my back and there are bra elastic marks on my back I haven’t figured out how to get rid of. So I suppose the back scar doesn’t matter all that much anyway.

I feel like I should clarify, when I say boudoir-esque I don’t mean naked XXX shots. In fact, beyond seeing the top of my panties in a couple, they are all rather tame. There are no boob shots and I am not nude in any. 😛 They are cleaner than HBO.

Oh, and although I really don’t feel like I have to say this but… I won’t be silly enough to post them to Facebook or sext them to my boyfriend. (Even if I did have a cell phone 😛 )  But I will share one unedited (other than the face blur) here just to put to rest any doubts about S. taking pornographic photos. This is the ‘raciest’ one, if you can even call it that with what is on the cover of magazines today. Really, they were more to make myself feel better about how I look and to commemorate my pre-surgery body. I was in the best shape it has been in my adult life!

Let me know what you think?


– S.

Click on the photo to view it larger on the Broken Light site.


4 thoughts on “I’ve Been Published! Sorta.

  1. Lady E says:

    You are beautiful. Your photographs are beautiful, and you will get better.

  2. You are very talented, and beautiful, and perfectly UNbroken in any shape, mental or physical. Thank you for submitting. (I knew you would be happy with the results;) I look forward to seeing what you will do next. Feel well.

  3. simmog says:

    Congratulations….photography is a wonderful way to express your thoughts and emotions. We are always our harshest critics when it comes to our own bodies and generally only see the flaws and
    overlook the beauty. I have a little pot belly I despise but my partner
    loves it. Too much of our lives are spent not liking something about
    ourselves. It’s the differences in our bodies that make us all the more interesting….you are beautiful inside and out and your photography shows that depth and you should definitely keep snapping and show us more.

    • S. says:

      Thank you so much Simmog.
      I have a pot belly now too! My meds made me gain fifty pounds in two weeks (50% of my body weight!!) and I have been trying to get used to it for about four months now. Those photos were taken when I was in shape… Not so much anymore. And you are right I tend to be harder on myself than what others see me as. Although… My Bf has told me he doesn’t find me as attractive since I gained the weight… So I guess it makes sense that I feel bad about how I look right now. I just don’t feel like I look healthy. I don’t want to be waif thin. Oh, I am five feet tall, so at 100-110 I am in my optimal weight range, not underweight at all. In fact even when I was having problems with my digestive system before I was diagnosed with celiac disease I was only 84 lbs and I still have hips and a butt. 😛
      Anyway, thanks so much for your comment. I really appreciate it!
      xo – S.

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